Filiz Boyraz lives in Stockholm, Sweden and is one of my closest friends. And this is what this young spirits thinks about the world, dreams and everyday life…
When did you realize you like to photograph?
At the end of ninth grade, I had started to follow blogs which inspired me. At first I bought a digital camera but it did not take so long time before I bought myself a SLR camera. I would like to dedicate more time to take pictures. More time to take picture of simple and everyday life. I like everyday life.
Do you have other interests?
I feel like I do not have time for more, used to play handball. Maybe in the future I could have programming as a hobby, do it on my spare time. My interest in programming did not really start until I began my education. Though the thought did come up during a curse in webdesign. I thought they were the same thing but the are two completely different things. It is fun because it is like building with blocks but in programming everything is digital.
Do Filiz have any dream?
Not really, everything is uncertain. The longest I can think about is traveling and studying abroad. Studying in Korea is something I promise myself to do, take the chance to study at one of the top universities and live in a place long from home.
“It will not remain a dream, it is a must.”
Otherwise, I find it hard to plan something that is in the future. When I was younger i used to have a clearer picture about every day but now I feel that daily life never is exactly the same as you imagine.
You recently ran a marathon with a friend, how did that feel?
Well, this marathon was not exactly a marathon, much shorter. Still at the finish line, I felt great. I broke my own record because the amazing competitive atmosphere. Competition is defiantly something I like. More competition about different schoolwork is something I would like to participate in.
“It is not that I like to compare myself with others, I just like the way it makes me feel, do act smart during pressure and stress.”
Do you surprise yourself when you accomplish something?
I always surprise myself. You can imagine what might happen but it never be like you expected it to be. When I accomplish something it strengthens my confidence, sometimes too much. (laughter)
A perfect day is…
The more things I get out of that day, the more happy and satisfied I am with the day. A lazy day at home is nice but it is not so interesting. I usually go out for walks and when I end up on streets I never explored or been, then I pretty happy about that day.
When do you feel the strongest?
After training (laughter). That is when I am physically strong but mentally I would say when I talk myself in to doing something I have been hesitating about for a long time.
In contrast, when are you weakest?
When you do not understand something that someone tries to explain to you over and over again. Then I do not like to have to ask again. An other situation is when you regret not doing something.
There is so many places I would like to see. If I just pick a country just like that…then Egypt. Something in Africa but with a middle eastern vibe. Okay, I changed my mind, I would choose Morocco. My mother´s friend was recently there and showed us some picture, now I so want to go there. A place that has got desert and camels.
Do you have any close childhood memory?
When I was little we spent a lot of time in Turkey and the nights there is pitch black. I used to play hide and seek in the middle of the night with the neighborhood´s children. And that is something we always talk about now when we meet again.
If you could improve yourself with something, what would that be?
More social skills. Be able to express myself in text. I do not really have a great interest in it but I begin to comprehend that expressing myself in text might be something I need to work on.
Have you ever though about the meaning of life?
Yes, I actually have. The meaning of life is having things to look forward to. It can be ordinary things like “today I am going school or going to eat dinner with my friends”. As a child I read a book that actually was about the meaning of life and it was a boy that asked people what they thought was the purpose of life. That book made me think and ask myself that question. The explanations from different people was quiet simple, it was a book for children.
“An explanation I remember was a old man saying that the purpose of life was candy.”
Any expectations on the world?
No. I have no expectations and therefore I am not disappointed either. I survive pretty good with that. Describing people I would say that they are strangers and alive. But recently I have been more open for the world, especially different food. partly because of my friends.
You are studying programming which is a field with not so many girls. How is that?
I does not bother me so much. I tried to hang out with some of the girls but it did not go so well. There is lot of talk about few girls reading this course and the universities tries attract them to this field in a wrong way. I think you really do not have to say something, the ones interested in this field will eventually end up in this field. I did not hear anything about this talk when I applied this education, I just took it since it had a lot of math.
“You should take what you are interested in and not what other people say about it.”
I do not know if some feel like the small amount of girls in the programming field might stop them from taking the education. Like earlier mentioned, I never heard about this “problem”, maybe that is why it was easy to choose. It does not bother me.
Latest song you heard.
Something I heard on the train on my way.
A song from a Korean music group ViXX.
”The Housekeeper and the Professor” by Yoko Ogawa.
It is about math, at the same time more than just that. It is about relationships and using math as communication when there is no other way to communicate.
Countryside – City
Breakfast – Dinner (As long as it is special and not the ordinary, anything would do.)
I have been thinking about a question you asked me awhile ago, about what I would have said as an advice to a large amount of people.
“There is nothing you can say to a large group of people, each individual has something unique for them that they need hear.”
(Photos: Filiz Boyraz Instagram, @filizboyraz.)
Thank you so much, Filiz!